What Will the Silt Reveal?

"The point of your activities throughout the day is not to make a living, but to make a life; not to 'work' but to create joy. If you are doing what you are doing merely to 'pay the bills,' you will have missed the major reason for All Of Life. The purpose of life is to know and express Who You  Are. If you do other than that during the days and times of your life, you will have not used those days and times in a way that profits your soul. It is soul profit we are after here, not body profit." 
– Neale Donald Walsch 

Like many other people during these troubling economic times, now I get to really step back and listen at what Walsch is telling me. I realize you have to pay the bills. ‘Nuff said. But what happens when the heart questions the reasons that it shares the oxygen supply from the lungs to the tips of the fingers? It feels broken. The soul feels deprived of life.

So I am forced to reassess some of the purpose in life. Sure the job held part of the purpose and could at times be a big time suck but that fact can be something that prevents the soul from blossoming. But now that obstacle has tumbled out of the way. So for me, I am going to have to really think about how I want to live the rest of my life. I know deep down that the answers lie there waiting to be stirred out of the silt of the years. Not a real easy thing to do because a lot of stuff that settled there I have tried to forget and is densely mixed with what I need to remember. As well as the stuff that hasn’t settled into the silt yet still floating around with it.

What will that silt mixture reveal to me? I bet I will be pleasantly surprised.